So. Earlier I was viewing his brother’s facebook account and I saw a lot of condolence message on his wall. I was shocked, and hurt when I saw one of the posts that said, “Ej, my sincerest condolences to you and to the whole family. I saw a while ago how deeply affected you were when Bebeng was struggling for his life. And i am amazed by the love that you have for our brother. Mahal ka ni ate roms! Be strong!”
I was hurt.. Though we weren’t really friends, Jan still became a huge part of my life. I had a crush on him. I used to travel from Sta.Rosa to Marikina just to see him. Though we never talked in person, we still texted. And I know, I got irrated and got mad at him the last time we spoke. But still. He was a part of my life, and I’m very much affected of what happened.
I don’t even know if he still remembers me… All that I know is he’s the Jan Tandiama I had a huge crush on last last summer. And even if I didn’t become a part of his life, he still became a huge part of mine.
You will be missed by everyone, Gab. I know it. I’m sorry, and I will miss you even if I wasn’t really a part of your life.